I will be going to the Philippines on Wednesday!! One side of me is excited to go and the other is scared to go!! I'm will be out there for business meetings and looking to venture new opportunities! I have set up some meetings with artist buyers out there! I hope everything works out fine!!

I haven’t been to the Philippines in over 10 years! Last time I was there, I was only 15 years old. It’s going to be a little scary going there. I know that most of the people there in Manila are Americanize, but there are still those other people. I’m going to be going there with my friend/business partner. He’s expecting me to make all the contacts and make things happen. He’s putting a lot of pressure on me, but I love pressure and I wouldn’t have it any other way!! Many people believe in what I do, and sometimes I don’t believe in myself! Half of the things I do, I’m winging it! Yes! It’s hard to believe, but I just come up with stuff!
 

So we’ll see what I get out of this trip!!
 

Tags: business, philippines

So..what were you doing 5 years ago in the month of June? 

For me..it was just an experience that I don't want anyone to feel, but we all will at some point of our lifes.  5 years ago this month, my father passed away.  I can remember like it was yesterday.  The pain and sufferings that my family and I was going through.  The worst part of all is that it just happened so fast. Where you really couldn't soak it all in.  The whole 8 months that I knew that my dad had cancer was crazy.  I remember waking up early in the morning and taking him to kemo theraphy.  At that time I was about 22 and I really was living my life care free.  I was out partying and drinking almost every night.  When I found out that my dad had cancer, it really didn't hit me.  I just figured that after kemo he would get better and live longer, but it didn't happen like that.  You know how people tell you that you should always tell the people you love "I love you", and that you don't know whats going to happen tomorrow.  Well, I never really got to tell my dad that I loved him. And it still burns me to this day.  When I go to my dad's grave and I tell him that I love him, even though it doesn't feel the same.  

Since my dad passed away... I always try to tell my mom that I love her.  And my brothers and I always try to make her feel special.  It just sucks that it takes a life changing experience to realize that you need to grow up and make changes in your life.  As my dad watches my family and I from heaven, I'm sure he's seeing what kind of Men, me and my brothers are growing up to be.  I was able to be more ambitious and insteading of wanting; actually doing things.  My brothers are doing the same thing as well. 

so thats about it! just wanted to take some load off my shoulder!

Current Mood: crushed

ok... been on a min on this... but i guess when you're busy... thats a good thing! Just got back to Puerto Vallarta and came back with a 24k debt/loan... so now gotta hustle to pay that off within 2 years! Vacation was fun and relaxing, but i was really on my phone alot... texting, talking, and sending emails all throughout the day... so it was a mini vacation! 

You know whats funny... sometimes I don't even know what i'm doing! Lately I've been getting approached by alot of artists, dj's, producers, etc... for me to manage them.  I am flattered and honorred, but some times i'm just winging it!  But in the next few months, I am looking to pick up some of these artist and producers... I think its that time where I know I can make things happen. I've been meeting a lot of important people and building relationships with them.  

The move to socal is begining to be realistic! just gotta wait for another month or two to make sure I really want to move there still! So we will see whats up with that one! i'm excited for a move thoe! Its just gonna be different! but I have enough friends out there to keep me comfy!

god is good! peace! 

You know what I love, is when people tell me I can't do what I wanna do. It just really motivates me and get me going.  I feel accomplished when I know I've reached that goal or on my way towards that goal.  Some times there are bumps in the road that leads you to other things, don't know if thats a good or bad thing! You know what I hate, is that the people that are telling you all the negative stuff are you friends and family.  It just sucks that your own friends and family aren't supportive, but I guess thats what drives me.  Its not like my dreams and goals aren't realistic.  It may sound unrealistic, but I think that I've proven myself and made steps towards what I want to do in life.  The more I heard the criticism, the more inspired I am to reach my goals.

It all goes back to GOD, he's the one that leading me to what I want to do.  God is giving me the obstacles to challenge me. To see if this is what I really want to do.  So, i guess all the negative stuff and all the positive stuff are just challenges in my life.  I want to go very far, but not quite sure where that "far" is. 

Before I get started, I lead my church to service today. It felt good! I've been doing it for well over a year, if not more.  Every time I go up infront of everybody, I'm not nervous; nor never was.  I thank God for giving me the energy to praise him.  To pray infront of everybody and not to be nervous, thats a good thing for me. Now I just need to be more creative with my prayers. 

So, since we're well into February; I've been having a good year so far. I spent my new year in New York. I got to hang out with Donnie and his family and friends.  His mother is so sweet and lovely.  No wonder Donnie is well grounded. His family really cares and supports him throughout everything! His friends don't treat him like a "superstar", like everyone else does.  They still clown on him and punk him around! haha.  It was freezin out there!, but I still had fun.

This year has been keeping me busy!  I've been blessed to work/deal with other artist as well. I've dealt with Colby Odonis, Ray J, T-Pain, Pitsburgh Slim, Baby Bash, Pitbull, and others has been great.  All though not everything closed, it was still a good learning experience.  I've got to meet alot of good aritst/people.  You really have to have talent and that drive to make it in this industry. 

Donnie is still keeping me busy. There has been a lot of offers for him to just show up at places.  I just wish that he has a release date already. I know its going to take quite some time, because he's not doing recording his album.  I expect it to be release in late April.  Everybody is waiting for a single to drop on the radio. Once it does, its over! It's going to be playing everywhere!  He's a good guy and he deserves nothing but the best.  

Valentine's day just past and it was an interesting valentine for me.  I didn't really expect to do much this year, but I actually kept busy.  I actually had two "dinner dates".  The frist date was with the one woman that will always be there for me. She will never leave me and will always support me. Cause she's my Mom! haha...  After that, I hung out with a wonderful friend.  She is such a good girl and a great friend, even though I've known her for a little over a year already.  We went to the Common concert, but some things didn't plan out right.  Maybe it was a good thing, cause it shows the type of person she is. She's just not in it for the "perks" of the plugs that I have.  Had dinner after that also and it was good.

You know I don't mind paying for people, but only when people are real about it.  7 out of 10 times, I would pick up the tab for lunch, dinner, or whatever.  The 3 out of 10 times, are a good test to see if the people you're with are good also.  I went to a club last night and I seen an old friend at the bar. I was waiting to get drinks also.  While I was getting a drink, the friend gave me a beer. I didn't even know it was intended towards me, but he put it right on my chest.  I asked him, why'd you get me a drink? cause I didn't even ask for one, nor he didn't even offer me to begin with.  He said that knows that I'm good people, cause a while back I seen him at another club and I offered him a drink.  And that meant a lot to him he said, cause he buys a lot of people drinks and not that often do people buy or offer him one back.  That just made my night! 

So here's my goals for the next month or so.  I need to keep thanking God for everything he's given me. He has really blessed me a lot in just the new year alone.  I still need to be me and not think that I'm better or will be better than the next person. I have to keep motivated and push myself to be a better person.  Its a daily struggle.  Need to push myself to close some deals I have in the works. Everything will work out for itself also with these deals.  On a personal level, I need to built closer relationships with other people.  People think I'm just a party goer and a clubber, but I'm hardly that person anymore.  To begin with, I just loved hanging out and having fun with my friends.  They need to see me as a friend, not a hook up! haha 

 I don't know if any of these made any sense, I was just typing from my head and heart! 
GOD IS HOLY! HOLLA.

So I started this to create something new. I use to use xanga..but that got boring! Everyone right now is talking about how their year went and whats in store for them in the future! and I wish nothing but good luck and hard work to ya! 

I started the year from working at a bank, to then working at a mortgage company, and now to working for myself. Well not literally for myself.. but really creating my own business and sticking to it.  I finally took the step and challenge myself to do what I really want to do.  After the 4-5 years of this club/music/entertainment industry... I'm finally starting to find my niche!  I have built stronger relationships with God, my family, friends, and business associates!  

How many people can say that they can wake up pretty much whenever they want and also work in the comforts of your own home? but its just a beginning to what my dream is. I don't really know what my big dream is yet, just cause there is soooo many things I want to do in life.  I am blessed to be able to learn a lot of different businesses.  From real estates, banking, music label, club management, booking agent, and so on.  This has just be a gift from God.  

I know it sounds cheesy with the whole "god" thing... but it works... and having fate helps! I have a great Pastor/Rev to checks up on me weekly to bi-weekly.   I'm able to open up to him more, and he's able to understand my goals and dreams.  I know he's been praying for me and other people as well! My mom kind of knows what I do, but she is still lost. Its hard to explain to her.  Cause being from an asian background.. we're thought to have a regular full time job... be a doctor, engineer, or some other stuff! but if I tell her MUSIC or CLUBS... haha.. she already thinks i'm an alcoholic.  Lately my mom hasn't said anything.. maybe cause I pay for the food when we go out to dinner more often. 

Back to God for a min! from Jan to May/June, I've been making solid income and I always blow off my money on stupid stuff.  I never really gave offering/tithes to my church.  On occasion, when I had some money in my wallet I would throw it in.  During Nov, my pastor talked about offering and tithes..( i think thats how you spell it).  He was talkin about how we need to give to God financially as much as spiritually.  God allowed us to have good jobs and for us to be able to take care of our family.  So we should be able to support him in this world.  The founder of colgate and Quaker oaths were christians. And when they 1st started out their business, they told god that they would give him money if their business is successful.  Its normal to offer 10% of your monthly salary, but they were offering over that!  So I was thinking... I'm a business man and I'm starting my business... Let me start offering 10% to everything I make. 2nd week of nov, made couple of hundreds.. so I threw in 40 bucks... 3rd week made couple of hundreds again... so I threw in 60 bucks! 4th week.. made a G..so i threw in 100 bucks... let just say... after the 4th week of nov.... starting in dec... i've been throwing in 100 bucks every sunday at church! so I am really thankful for that!  and to top it off... i barely hard to work hard for it. It just kept on coming! its like taking one step back to take two steps forward!

I know the business i'm in isn't the best business for a christian man, but I believe that God is helping me with it.  Helping me to improve to be a better Christian everyday!  Some people tell me that i'm really chill and super cool and i'm in a business where its cut throat!  I wish I can tell them that its god's work, but I get scared. Maybe I should thoe! new years resolution right there! haha

So today, I finally had a conversation with Donnie's mom ( donnie from making the band 4). She was great and really funny! Donnie wanted me to talk to her and get that good vibe going.  Especially since there is going to be big plans for the new year.  So overall with that.. we hit it off! she was great..and i think she liked me! she wants me to come up to NY and meet her in person.. so probably going to do that sometime in the early new year.  I just can't wait for Donnie to blow! and i know he can't wait either! He wants to financially take care of his mom and family.. .and I do too! 

so this is just a blog about this year... can't really blog about whats going to happen, cause it hasn't happened yet! I just know that God will lead me to the right path! 

I'm going to try to blog out every month or when I can and feel like it.  Not sure who's going to read this.  Maybe one of my friends will see this and use it as an inspiration... haha maybe not!

MERRY X-MAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Tags: business, christian, donnie j, entertainment, fate, god, music, offerings
Current Location: San Francisco
Current Mood: accomplished